Starved for Connection. What's the correction ?

I’m hungry for a taste of true love.

I'm starved for connection.

There is one person I want it from, AND I'M NOT GETTING IT!

I don’t get it!!

What do you do when you think you had that 'special connection', and then all at once you find out that it may not be what you though it was or that person may not be capable of connecting to you the way you thought they were (or once were). What if their life overwhelms them so much that they can’t be in yours?

Does it come down to two people choosing to connect? Choosing to be together and connect, even when times are tough and they are stressed out?

Does it just take some time to reconfigure yourself when you haven’t seen that person in a while?

I wanna undo it.
This is a mess.

I want to be happy and in love.

I want to feel special to the man I am with.

I don’t want to feel like I am burden in any way.

I want that person to not be scared to treat me like he loves me.

If you have sex with someone you could love, shouldn’t you feel more connected to them after?? Why is it that I feel the opposite?

My heart needs relief.

I hate this honesty, but I'm just going to say it; I'm not feeling this. I'm not feeling him. I feel like he isn’t there. I want more than what he is giving. I believed he was capable of giving emotionally and maybe he isn’t.

The 'strange' feeling I've had over the last few weeks has been me realizing he isn't giving to the relationship emotionally. The truth is, I don’t know if I can continue to care about him at a high priority level if I don’t receive emotional connection back. I thought it would change when I saw him and he would start giving emotionally.. at lease in some way… and nothing.

I should be glowing.


R.D...F.U